In general, I do not allow comments on There Was a Little Hope.
Because I’m not interested in dialogue. I’m not interested in banter, niceties, or arguing. I’m not interested in debating who or what I am, for the most part. This is kind of a safe space for me and, while in the past, I’ve wanted to let others in, I don’t feel the need to anymore.
I don’t need that sort of companionship. After being in the middle and sidelines of multiple online skirmishes, I’m just not interested anymore.
Yes, you can accuse me of all sorts of negative things due to this policy, but that doesn’t bother me. After so many years of trying to make people like me by having open dialogue and being open in general, I realize that the point isn’t to let people wander in; the point is to invite them in.
As I’ve gotten older, I’ve felt less need to invite people in. I am not as misanthropic as my angrier rants make me seem. At the same time, I simply don’t get the same degree of pleasure from socializing with others as a good percentage the rest of humanity does.
On this blog–many incarnations ago–I described myself as sort of a monastic or monk. I am in your world, but not necessarily of it, and I don’t feel the need to defend myself anymore.